Wednesday, August 8, 2007

We don't chat anymore. Not after the day when i bared my heart and soul to her only to realize she wasn’t there where i was. But she signs-in everyday, which she never used to do before. And i find her presence comforting.

I click on gtalk every once in a while. Just to check if she is still around. And i feel all warm inside as i see her there.

I am a hopeless case i tell u.
There are few people in your life who matter to you the most for some reasons unknown. Few in your personal life and few in your professional life. It’s the latter i want to talk about.

Sometimes you put in your efforts, the best you can, to build something. And when it’s done you take pride and show it first to these people who matter to you the most. May be because the key source of your motivation was a back pat that you had imagined getting. But what if this person turns out to be a jerk and all he can come up with is "Good, Good... but remember next time you will have to put in real good efforts coz luck may not favor you" or something similar. Asshole.

If your happiness depends on what somebody else does then i think you have a problem. I had read this somewhere before. I was impressed with the way this one line made me feel then. Kick-ass-&-to-hell-with-the-world carefree and invulnerable. But I never quite could put this thought in practice. That is up untill today. Now I have found a panacea to beat this could'nt-he-have-been-more-appreciative syndrome. I call it bastard--try-doing-what-i-have-done-and-you-shall-know-what-it-takes panacea.

So dude, Fuck off
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P.S: I need a new job people, spread the word. Coz with this attitude, I am getting sacked soon.
I was born an optimist...

So what? Nobody's born perfect