Ok, she was with me in my undergrad college. And i had a huge crush on her then. We were in touch for quite sometime post our graduation and used to chat for hours together on msn. This was year 2001.
But then i got busy with my post grad course and she got busy with her job and we lost touch.
That’s what i tell myself. But the fact is... i was never sure if i deserved to be with her. And i knew for sure that i will fall for her real bad and not be able to come out of it. She was class apart and never could quite understand why she remained friends with me. Something that has to happen in the future, i thought, should happen right away. It will hurt lesser that way. And I, the master in the act of pretension, got suddenly busy with my studies and projects.
A year or two thereon, we did meet once or twice at friend’s parties, online couple of times, exchanged few messages, but nothing really happened.
I messaged her casual 'how hv u been?' few weeks back. What followed was string of messages and we decided to meet up. The day fixed was Saturday of the next week.
On Saturday, she rescheduled the meeting to a weekday in the next week. And then to the coming Sunday. Sunday it rained heavily so obviously we could not meet. So it had to be some other weekday in the coming week. And on this other day she remembered about our dinner meeting at 10 pm in the night.
And while all this happened, i wondered if she is the same girl i was once afraid i would fall for badly?
But then i got busy with my post grad course and she got busy with her job and we lost touch.
That’s what i tell myself. But the fact is... i was never sure if i deserved to be with her. And i knew for sure that i will fall for her real bad and not be able to come out of it. She was class apart and never could quite understand why she remained friends with me. Something that has to happen in the future, i thought, should happen right away. It will hurt lesser that way. And I, the master in the act of pretension, got suddenly busy with my studies and projects.
A year or two thereon, we did meet once or twice at friend’s parties, online couple of times, exchanged few messages, but nothing really happened.
I messaged her casual 'how hv u been?' few weeks back. What followed was string of messages and we decided to meet up. The day fixed was Saturday of the next week.
On Saturday, she rescheduled the meeting to a weekday in the next week. And then to the coming Sunday. Sunday it rained heavily so obviously we could not meet. So it had to be some other weekday in the coming week. And on this other day she remembered about our dinner meeting at 10 pm in the night.
And while all this happened, i wondered if she is the same girl i was once afraid i would fall for badly?
2 comments:
:) maybe you are the guy, she was once afraid she would badly fall fall for.
And stop blaming her for the rains!
:) maybe you are the guy, she was once afraid she would badly fall fall for.
And stop blaming her for the rains!
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