Childhood was fun. Anything and everything was possible then. Flying like Superman was just a matter of few years. I just had to grow up to that size. Being an Architect was just a matter of few years. I just had to reach that age when i could attend college. Everything looked possible. Untill I grew up.
My first day at office was also fun. Everything looked possible. Untill i realised the futility of all my actions. Untill i realised that dreams at times remain dreams no matter how hard you try. Efforts do not matter, persistence do not matter, hard work, patience, genius nothing matters. "Impossibilities" does exist in this world.
Childhood was fun. Everything was possible then
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Monday, September 4, 2006
Meaning of Life
I have heard this ranted many times. It used to leave me befuddled then. How could anybody even think of questioning it? And that too in this manner? It eluded my understanding. Only till the time I had come to question it myself. "What is the meaning of life? Why are we here and what on earth is the purpose of this life?”
Not only have I come to question it myself now, I have also come to understand what the question stands for. Only a little bit though. The profoundness of the questions is such that, no matter how deep one's understanding about it is, yet only words that one can use to describe it is a simple question itself "What is the meaning of life?” which does not mean anything unless one understands it as a personal experience.
Think of it in this way. . I went to school coz i was sent to school. I do not remember for sure but i guess, the only purpose i must have had in life then, would have been to clear the exams and to get good grades. Then i grew up a little bit and grades did matter still, but it partially was replaced by friendship and having fun and may be running after girls. Then came college, some more fun, a lot more friends. Then came a personal tragedy and all i could focus on was to get through the tragedy. Then came post graduation and getting a job (and a girlfriend) seemed to matter most. After getting a job it was about moving up in career and making a mark.
And after this there will be marriage, family, children and many more things that our society has set up as a norm for life stages. And I will go through these stages also, in a sequence, like I have been doing since long.
And the story is same for many people around me. But are we here to just go through these life stages and die one day without even questioning WHY? What is the purpose of all this? If there is no purpose then why were we even born in first place? A wise man had told me once that, in life nobody is born with a purpose, one needs to find it and live for it. Some say, if we are born here then it is for a purpose. But my question still remains.
Think about it. Just once.
If you tend to remain with it, then its coz you may have started to understand something. And if the question befuddles you like it did to me, don't worry too much, one day it will certainly come to haunt you. Till then, enjoy whatever you are enjoying!!!!
Not only have I come to question it myself now, I have also come to understand what the question stands for. Only a little bit though. The profoundness of the questions is such that, no matter how deep one's understanding about it is, yet only words that one can use to describe it is a simple question itself "What is the meaning of life?” which does not mean anything unless one understands it as a personal experience.
Think of it in this way. . I went to school coz i was sent to school. I do not remember for sure but i guess, the only purpose i must have had in life then, would have been to clear the exams and to get good grades. Then i grew up a little bit and grades did matter still, but it partially was replaced by friendship and having fun and may be running after girls. Then came college, some more fun, a lot more friends. Then came a personal tragedy and all i could focus on was to get through the tragedy. Then came post graduation and getting a job (and a girlfriend) seemed to matter most. After getting a job it was about moving up in career and making a mark.
And after this there will be marriage, family, children and many more things that our society has set up as a norm for life stages. And I will go through these stages also, in a sequence, like I have been doing since long.
And the story is same for many people around me. But are we here to just go through these life stages and die one day without even questioning WHY? What is the purpose of all this? If there is no purpose then why were we even born in first place? A wise man had told me once that, in life nobody is born with a purpose, one needs to find it and live for it. Some say, if we are born here then it is for a purpose. But my question still remains.
Think about it. Just once.
If you tend to remain with it, then its coz you may have started to understand something. And if the question befuddles you like it did to me, don't worry too much, one day it will certainly come to haunt you. Till then, enjoy whatever you are enjoying!!!!
Sunday, July 23, 2006
Fear of Unknown & Beautiful Earth
As a child I was always afraid of dark. It was the fear of unknown that the darkness hid in its wrap. I was afraid ghosts waited in there to grab me and gobble me up.
I still haven’t changed much as an adult. The fear of darkness has gone away, but the fear of unknown is still around. The shapeless ghosts have been replaced by demons which are nothing but mere concoction of my mind. Fear of failure, of losing out. Fear of not being upto the mark. Deep inside I know they exist only inside my mind, like my childhood ghosts.
I used to switch on the lights to chase my ghosts away. And I do the same thing with my demons. I bring them out in light and I jot them down in my journal. Then they just go away.
No wonder why I find writing so liberating.
Coming back to my Thailand trip. (I had promised I ll write about it). The trip was simply amazing. All that traveling was just too tiring but overall the trip was pure unadulterated fun. They have the most amazing beaches in that country with lush green mountains all around. Untouched by humans, most part of the country is just heavenly.
I had been to Pune yesterday. En-route in train, I saw the beautiful hills of Lonanvala. That place is yet another heaven on the Earth, especially in this season. Huge mountains, covered with gray white clouds, pristine waterfalls making their way to the foothills of the mountains and the gusts of winds with freshness of atmosphere in it lifted my spirits instantly.
It convinces me that God indeed wanted us feel happy living here. That’s why he made this Earth so beautiful.
I still haven’t changed much as an adult. The fear of darkness has gone away, but the fear of unknown is still around. The shapeless ghosts have been replaced by demons which are nothing but mere concoction of my mind. Fear of failure, of losing out. Fear of not being upto the mark. Deep inside I know they exist only inside my mind, like my childhood ghosts.
I used to switch on the lights to chase my ghosts away. And I do the same thing with my demons. I bring them out in light and I jot them down in my journal. Then they just go away.
No wonder why I find writing so liberating.
Coming back to my Thailand trip. (I had promised I ll write about it). The trip was simply amazing. All that traveling was just too tiring but overall the trip was pure unadulterated fun. They have the most amazing beaches in that country with lush green mountains all around. Untouched by humans, most part of the country is just heavenly.
I had been to Pune yesterday. En-route in train, I saw the beautiful hills of Lonanvala. That place is yet another heaven on the Earth, especially in this season. Huge mountains, covered with gray white clouds, pristine waterfalls making their way to the foothills of the mountains and the gusts of winds with freshness of atmosphere in it lifted my spirits instantly.
It convinces me that God indeed wanted us feel happy living here. That’s why he made this Earth so beautiful.
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Thailand
I got my passport with visa today. Finally its final. Will be flying to Thailand this thursday. I am really looking forward to this trip. I cant even remember how many times the trip has got scheduled, cancelled, rescheduled. First it was a Dubai trip, then it changed to bangkok, then to singapore, then to malaysia and finally its bangkok again. Phew!!! Anyways, whats good is that we are finally going.
I was so keen on going for a holiday that all this scheduling and rescheduling has turned me into a paranoid. I am thinking things that i would not have under normal circumstances.
During our last trip my collegue's visa had somebody else's photograph in it. He was lucky to have still make it for the trip. The travel agency guy did manage to get a new visa done well in time. Whole of last week i could'nt stop worrying about right photograph on my visa. Although the possibility of it happening again and that to in my case of all people was very rare. But i still could not stop worrying about it. Now that the everything is done, i have come to know that there are no photographs required for this country's visa.
I know i will keep on worrying about many more stupud things till i don't come back from my holiday.
I will write about my experience there. So keep reading.
I was so keen on going for a holiday that all this scheduling and rescheduling has turned me into a paranoid. I am thinking things that i would not have under normal circumstances.
During our last trip my collegue's visa had somebody else's photograph in it. He was lucky to have still make it for the trip. The travel agency guy did manage to get a new visa done well in time. Whole of last week i could'nt stop worrying about right photograph on my visa. Although the possibility of it happening again and that to in my case of all people was very rare. But i still could not stop worrying about it. Now that the everything is done, i have come to know that there are no photographs required for this country's visa.
I know i will keep on worrying about many more stupud things till i don't come back from my holiday.
I will write about my experience there. So keep reading.
Sunday, June 4, 2006
Relationship & Happiness
We think we are insufficient alone. Relationships make us complete.
But isn’t it true that, unless we are happy and content with ourselves, no relationship will make u so?
But feeling incomplete with ourselves though, we still get into relationships and seek self worth in their eyes. Only to discover, that what we are seeking isn’t there. What was supposed to be a fresh bloom of fragrance- the relationship- then starts smelling rotten.
Knowing very well that the relationship is causing more unhappiness than happiness we still hold on to them for perpetuity, thinking breaking up will be unbearable (Silent Sufferers).
If we seek relationship for happiness, then why don’t we end it the moment it itself starts hurting us?
But isn’t it true that, unless we are happy and content with ourselves, no relationship will make u so?
But feeling incomplete with ourselves though, we still get into relationships and seek self worth in their eyes. Only to discover, that what we are seeking isn’t there. What was supposed to be a fresh bloom of fragrance- the relationship- then starts smelling rotten.
Knowing very well that the relationship is causing more unhappiness than happiness we still hold on to them for perpetuity, thinking breaking up will be unbearable (Silent Sufferers).
If we seek relationship for happiness, then why don’t we end it the moment it itself starts hurting us?
Friday, May 26, 2006
Greed & Fear
The interplay of these two emotions is interesting.
The fact about Greed and Fear is that there is no situation where fear exists without Greed or Desire.
Fear of losing out in career exists only bcoz there is greed of making it to the top. Fear of death exist only bcoz there is a desire to live. Fear of losing a loved one exists only bcoz there is desire to receive love.
Mothers have been using this understanding as their ultimate weapon for ages. My nephew likes to play with cars. He very rarely misbehaves with his mother. But whenever he does, reminding him that he may not get his new car is all it takes to set him straight.
If you look into the history, you will find countless examples where few people have successfully played with these basic emotions to their advantage and have created a mass followings.
In corporate world, successful leaders know and use this trick very well. Incentives, bonuses, esops are just ways of instilling fear by showing greed. Some slog coz they need their jobs and fear losing it...some slog coz that year end bonus is too attractive to miss out on.
Whatever instance you take, the trick to instill fear is simple .... "Breed Greed".
The fact about Greed and Fear is that there is no situation where fear exists without Greed or Desire.
Fear of losing out in career exists only bcoz there is greed of making it to the top. Fear of death exist only bcoz there is a desire to live. Fear of losing a loved one exists only bcoz there is desire to receive love.
Mothers have been using this understanding as their ultimate weapon for ages. My nephew likes to play with cars. He very rarely misbehaves with his mother. But whenever he does, reminding him that he may not get his new car is all it takes to set him straight.
If you look into the history, you will find countless examples where few people have successfully played with these basic emotions to their advantage and have created a mass followings.
In corporate world, successful leaders know and use this trick very well. Incentives, bonuses, esops are just ways of instilling fear by showing greed. Some slog coz they need their jobs and fear losing it...some slog coz that year end bonus is too attractive to miss out on.
Whatever instance you take, the trick to instill fear is simple .... "Breed Greed".
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
Mentor
Are all the bosses in this world alike? I mean do all of them have bosses like me who are self centered, who lack vision in life and who expect you to be totally unlike them. My boss wants me to have vision for my own role..yeah. To me this statement sounds like "Dude, I am a dumb idot and not competent to guide you well. You are on your own. Do some good work so that i can win praise from my own boss in turn".
Anyway, had another usless day in office. If I have to place a fingure on the common problem my generation is facing today I ll say its "Lack of Ambition and Direction". We don't know what we exactly wanna do.
We want to be successful and excel in life. We don't lack talent and skills to succeed. But....we are not clear what we want to do.
Thats why we need mentors in life. But my mentor seeks mentoring from me.
Anyway, had another usless day in office. If I have to place a fingure on the common problem my generation is facing today I ll say its "Lack of Ambition and Direction". We don't know what we exactly wanna do.
We want to be successful and excel in life. We don't lack talent and skills to succeed. But....we are not clear what we want to do.
Thats why we need mentors in life. But my mentor seeks mentoring from me.
Sunday, May 21, 2006
The Essence of Love
Today's Sunday Times is carrying an article on "Why girls fall for married men?"
It said, married men have a aura of confidence and emotional stability which attract girls. And its not that only girls get attracted to married men. I know guys who are also who find married women (read mature and emotionally stable) more attractive. These women are "Thinking Men's Goddess". They are way too attractive compared to those snooty fancy college girl types. In my opinion men who get attracted to these college girl types invariably realize that they have been chasing something ephemeral, which is going to die out sooner rather than later.
No i am not promoting extra marital affairs by any chance. It’s not necessary that a mature and emotionally stable woman have to be necessarily married. The reference to married men / women here is just to emphasize on the qualities these people have that make them attractive....
A strong relationship is a result of comfort two people share with each other. And according to me it comes only with maturity of thoughts and emotional stability.
It said, married men have a aura of confidence and emotional stability which attract girls. And its not that only girls get attracted to married men. I know guys who are also who find married women (read mature and emotionally stable) more attractive. These women are "Thinking Men's Goddess". They are way too attractive compared to those snooty fancy college girl types. In my opinion men who get attracted to these college girl types invariably realize that they have been chasing something ephemeral, which is going to die out sooner rather than later.
No i am not promoting extra marital affairs by any chance. It’s not necessary that a mature and emotionally stable woman have to be necessarily married. The reference to married men / women here is just to emphasize on the qualities these people have that make them attractive....
A strong relationship is a result of comfort two people share with each other. And according to me it comes only with maturity of thoughts and emotional stability.
Saturday, May 20, 2006
Friends
They say this about Friendship..that
"IT is like susu in your pants, others can just see the wetness, but its only you can feel its warmth."
I made a few good friends when i came new to this city. But over these years, in this mad rush of reaching somewhere in life, i lost touch with few of them.
RK: My first buddy from Rajeha. I met him on the first day of my college here. Lot of things to say about him...a cool and a relaxed guy, had a lot of patience to bear my strange stories and narrations. He was the one who coaxed me to give a rose on the Rose Day and was mad at me, coz i cud not muster enough courage to speak to "the Lady" ever again.
Have no clue when and how i lost touch with him.
PS: I don't know if i bear him more or he bears me more.. He is crazy about US and everything that is related to US. Is equally mad about Nike T shirts, Levis Jeans, perfumes, Nike shoes, Nike caps. His philosophy is life..Aim for Car if want the motorcycle..Aim for Girl's mom if you want "......". anyways...I cannot lose touch with him even if i want to. He wont let me.
HS: Why everyone finds him snobbish in the first impression i still don know. I passed my TY because of this guy. An ardent follower of spirituality...equally crazy about brands..and doesn't know how to count beyond 0..if you don't believe me, ask him how many girlfriends he has? I bet he' ll say "0". U see, he doesn't know how to count beyond that.
MM: I must have exchanged more words with her online than face to face. May be the ratio would be 1000 times to 1. An interesting person with interesting interests..Books, Vipasanna, Yoga, Trekking, Movies, Rock Music, Surfing and Advertising. She talks very intelligently (Trait rare in girls). Her idea of an ideal date - Going on a trek. (I like trekking as well. Wish i had told her this)
This blog is my idea of remembereing them.
Disclaimer: Hey buddies. This is just my version of your personalities. If you think otherwise....Write it in your own blog.
"IT is like susu in your pants, others can just see the wetness, but its only you can feel its warmth."
I made a few good friends when i came new to this city. But over these years, in this mad rush of reaching somewhere in life, i lost touch with few of them.
RK: My first buddy from Rajeha. I met him on the first day of my college here. Lot of things to say about him...a cool and a relaxed guy, had a lot of patience to bear my strange stories and narrations. He was the one who coaxed me to give a rose on the Rose Day and was mad at me, coz i cud not muster enough courage to speak to "the Lady" ever again.
Have no clue when and how i lost touch with him.
PS: I don't know if i bear him more or he bears me more.. He is crazy about US and everything that is related to US. Is equally mad about Nike T shirts, Levis Jeans, perfumes, Nike shoes, Nike caps. His philosophy is life..Aim for Car if want the motorcycle..Aim for Girl's mom if you want "......". anyways...I cannot lose touch with him even if i want to. He wont let me.
HS: Why everyone finds him snobbish in the first impression i still don know. I passed my TY because of this guy. An ardent follower of spirituality...equally crazy about brands..and doesn't know how to count beyond 0..if you don't believe me, ask him how many girlfriends he has? I bet he' ll say "0". U see, he doesn't know how to count beyond that.
MM: I must have exchanged more words with her online than face to face. May be the ratio would be 1000 times to 1. An interesting person with interesting interests..Books, Vipasanna, Yoga, Trekking, Movies, Rock Music, Surfing and Advertising. She talks very intelligently (Trait rare in girls). Her idea of an ideal date - Going on a trek. (I like trekking as well. Wish i had told her this)
This blog is my idea of remembereing them.
Disclaimer: Hey buddies. This is just my version of your personalities. If you think otherwise....Write it in your own blog.
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